If any of you reading this knows me on a personal level, you know I am not a patient person by any means. When I come up with ideas/plans, I want them implemented right then and now! Up until two years ago, it seemed that pretty much everything went that way. When Nick and I moved into our house, we were in constant remodel until the house was done. We went from one project straight to another. Even though the projects were getting done, I was learning things just don’t happen with the snap of your fingers.
After a year of being married, everything was going as we planned, except for one thing, children. We both planned on having children, 4 to be exact. We dreamed of having 2 boys and 2 girls. We both grew up with siblings and shared rooms. We wanted that bond that grew between us and our siblings for our children as well.
Soon after a year of trying and no success, we were referred to Sanford Hospital in Sioux Falls. When we got there, the doctors were very optimistic for us and said that they believed we wouldn’t have to go to the extent of IVF (In vitro-Fertilization) to start our family. After hours of tests and waiting, we got the results and they were not what we were expecting. In the moment, we were devastated. We rested on the doctor’s comments instead of God’s Word. (This is a perfect example on when you rest your plans on anything or anyone other than Christ, they don’t work out.)
After hearing how hard it was going to be for us to have our family we dreamed of, it seemed like everyone and their dogs were having babies. We struggled with the haunting “Why us?” thoughts. I mean we were married, God loving people, who would love our children so much. We started leaning on God more for everything, not just when we thought we were in need of Him. The “Why us?” started to become, “God has a better plan for us! Be patient!” Once we started changing our thoughts and prayer habits, we quickly realized that even though this journey isn’t easy, God is in this with us. Almost two years and three specialists later, we are starting the IVF process (tomorrow to be exact). Yay!! We still have a long road ahead of us, and there is a lot more patience needed. Knowing God is in full control, has given us a sense of peace that we could never feel with just trusting in the doctors’ and our plans.
There is a very important lesson here for everybody. Have patience and trust in the Lord your God. When we trust Him with all our heart, our priorities change, and our views in the world change. We rest in knowing that He is in control and He’s got this. I shared a photo this week that says, “God will wreck your plans when He sees that your plans are about to wreck you.” Praise God right?! He is the all knowing and all loving God! I pray that wherever you are in your walk with the Lord, this is a great reminder for all of us. Praise God He is always in control!
Below I have some scripture that I have found encouraging.
* “Let your hope keep you joyful, be patient in your troubles, and pray at all times.” ~ Romans 12:12
* “He comforts us in all our troubles so that we can comfort others.” ~ 2 Corinthians 1:3-4
* “The Lord isn’t really being slow about his promise, as some people think. No, He is being patient for your sake. He does not want anyone to be destroyed but wants everyone to repent.” ~ 2 Peter 3:9
* “Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid or terrified because of them, for the LORD your God goes with you; He will never leave or forsake you.” ~ Deuteronomy 31:6